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Hotel Room
03:48
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don't look at me I'm tired and torn
don't run to me my arms are not warm
I was made to be alone
I was made to be alone
My eyelids are heavy but the sun is so bright
and I haven't eaten since dinner last night
I just want to sleep
Don't want to do anything
Let me sleep
My eyelids are such a calming pink
And I just need a little more energy
To not hate the world around me
Split my lip because I'm done talking
Let me sit I'm so tired of always moving
My head is pounding my visions blurred
Your kind words don't make sense anymore
My skins always been too tight for me
So there isn't room for you
No there isn't room in my life
No room for you
My stomach is rolling it's still too much
It's not something you would ever
Think about
It's not something you should have to
And I won't make you
Let me sleep
My eyelids are such a calming pink
And I just need a little more energy
to not hate the people around me
Is it selfish to need anything?
Is it selfish to need anything?
Because I need you to leave me
Because I won't leave you
My stomach is empty and my hearts beating too fast
But when we go to sleep I think just maybe
You are someone I could trust
Please be someone I can trust
I'm not one to trust
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2. |
Unwelcome
03:51
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Legs are so heavy
I drag them across
Slowly moving on
Slow moving run
What I think and feel
Never the same
So I’ll exhaust myself
There’s no point to be made
Not saying anything
Nothing to be
Throw my plate on the floor
The glass shatters around me
Day dream about making a scene
These violent thoughts are so distracting
Avoid admitting I’m stuck meaningless routine
I never know if I’m actually
Feeling something real
Or if I just wish that I was
feeling something at all
I want to be your college
Cut me up into scraps
I want to be something new
I want to be something radiant
Day dream about making a scene
These violent thoughts are so distracting
Avoid admitting I’m stuck meaningless routine
I’d rather anything
I don’t think I can escape it
It’s a selfish dream
Collapse in collapse in
Try to fill out my skin
Take up space
To have something mine
There’s nothing special
There’s nothing new
Nothing original
No I can’t create anything
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3. |
Lemon Juice
04:24
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When I look at something long enough
It becomes something else
The streets are all empty but the cars are full
The lights still red
There are somethings I wish I could forget
And sometimes I do
But they slowly flood back in
Finding ways through to me
I’m afraid to let all my words spill out
But there’s a gravity in my stomach
they take up space inside me
And after their gone I can be empty
Change shape so fast
Is there anything to recognize
This life moves too fast
I can’t keep up with that
I wish I could live
Each moment again and again
But they slowly transform into
Something terrible
When I stare in the mirror long enough
Everything stretches and is wrong
I see something I’ll pretend I never saw
I’ve stood in the snow over an hour
I can’t feel my hands anymore
Everything looks out of place
Against this white floor
Change shape so fast
Is there anything to recognize
This life moves too fast
I can’t keep up with that
Nothings is supposed to make sense
Life was always an accident
And it doesn’t comfort me to
Pretend it’s anything more
Because if it’s all black and white
The brightness is blinding
And the darkness totally complete
And grey ugly
So when this hole in me
Drains everything out
I’ll finish left without anything to
Worry about
My stomach hurts
My eyes are dry
Everything’s been spinning too fast
And I just can't keep up
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I keep tripping Over my own thoughts
And I can’t remember
How to get up
You say I should be
Fine where I am
But I feel trapped and suffocated
Chorus:
I keep seeing
My Photos on the wall
How did I let
My hair get so long
I don’t recognize myself anymore
I need to find
Somewhere I can breath
Or my body will sink into the concrete
I can’t stay
Or my body will fade away
And you say that I am selfish
This is not what I want
This is just surviving
Chorus:
Everywhere I see
Where I could’ve gone
How did I let
My face get so long
I don’t recognize anything anymore
I cut off all my hair
While everyone was asleep
You don’t know
Everyone says
The only way is up
And I don’t know if I believe that
Everything I say is wrong
Everything I remember is off
What happened
What happened to me
I cut my hair found a new body
I go by another name
None of my clothes look the same
I left you
And everything
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5. |
Out Of Place
04:00
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I felt like winter would never end
Spring skipped and summer started
The budding trees are melting in the heat
But it’s always better than the cold
My skin is drying from the shower
And the photos are falling from my walls
I felt I have grown old and when I look back at my childhood, there’s nothing there at all
I feel like I’ve always lived
Inside one moment
All my memories pass me
In an amazing pictured snippets
Simple simple and small
I can’t hold on to it all
But oh god I’ll try
But oh god I’ll try
Your arms seem awkward and exposed
Driven out by the heat
And I am too big for my skin
Sitting side by side, so uncomfortably
I just want to grab the pavement beneath me
And try to stop the spinning
But I am not strong
You all crumble before me
Now I always feel like
I’m running out of time
I’ll be trying to catch up
The rest of my life
Simple simple and small
I can’t hold on to it all
But oh god I’ll try
But oh god I’ll try
Everything’s gotten lose
My sky is too tight
Throw me over the double line
I will stop
Honestly I’m just confused
I’ve been trying to make sense of the mess
But every time I fail
What matters to me I don’t know
But oh god I’ll try
But oh god I’ll try
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6. |
Really Nothing
06:41
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The people I’ve loved turned flat one day
They mark nothing before cleaning takes away
A new family lives in my childhood home they let the garden die my mom worked so hard on
How can a place I grew up in not remember me nothing bears witness move on it’s passing
Is anything real
If I ever stopped moving could I start again
And would I care if I couldn’t
It’s been harder to breathe lately. Is there enough for me there’s enough for you
Feel like my bones don’t fit anymore and none of my reflections look the same
Growing old is not a comfortable feeling knowing what’s coming without any understanding
Is anything real? When I stop moving can I start again,
because I wouldn’t care if I could
I am nothing
I am nothing
If I’m not here tomorrow does it matter that I was here at all
Oh if I’m not here tomorrow does it matter I was here at all
Now I waste my time
Tie yourself down make a life before you’ve disappeared before our eyes
I’m trying to handle it
But this is all I get
Oh God this is all I get
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7. |
Pink Shapes
02:55
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Maybe it’s all insignificant
The rise and the falls
Of our chest each night
Means nothing but
That we’re still alive
When I close my eyes
I see a deep pink
With colors and shapes
Of the things I’ve seen
The day before just echos between
So much to do and I can't sleep
wait another day let it spin without me
But Sometimes I stay awake for hours
Tossing and turning
Till my covers tie me down
And in the darkness I will relive
Every moment of my life
It all passes before my eyes
I pick apart everything
Till I’m just bones laid out
In front of all who knew me
A lair a lair this is no confession
I’ll give you all the pieces
you can piece them together all night
So much to do and I can't sleep
wait another day let it spin without me
Some nights my lungs refuse to fill
And the weight of everything
Breathes down on me
So I’m left holding all these loose ends
Trying to make sense of the mess I was given
I am so angry
So I’ll piece together the shapes behind my eyes
Until some thing makes sense to me
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8. |
Forest Fire
04:13
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There’s a fire near me burning
It’s been half an hour
The pictures don’t do it justice, my throat is hurting but I know I’m safe
It was a control burn
Just clearing away old brush
I want to go home
It’s not where I live
How can I feel homesick
It’s just my contestant state
I can feel the cliff coming
If I close my eyes maybe it won’t
I open them and
I’m still falling
The cars behind are speeding up
Their lights are brighter but I can’t see ahead
I don’t know how
to say it didn’t matter
I have always been this age
I am not old
I have always been
I am not
I am I am I am I am
I have always been
I hope one day
I will not be
I shut my eyes
And I stop
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faded home Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Faded Home was started in 2019. Originally the solo project of Theo Cobb (they/them), over the years it has had a rotating cast of members and contributors.
Currently in a limbo of being local to DC and Philly.
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